Thursday 27 December 2007

XMAS 2007

so xmas just passed
it wasnt really up to last year standard
but it was not that bad
last year xmas was really eventfull......
as usual we went to church
then we all gathered at my grandma's house
we had a toast....wished everyone merry xmas
then it was present time........(this is the main point of xmas and also what keeps xmas really fun)
so as all of us got our presents.....
then after that
my aunts organised a karaoke competition
apparently i am a relly lousy singer
of i know that
but the prize is cash
so i was willing to emberass myself
but in the end i didint win anything
then we started partying........
so all this happen last year

this year
everyone just concentrated on making money the most easiest way there is
poker
i didnt earn much
but i think i lost a lot
anyway on 25th night my aunts once again made us sing
but we the young ones didint think it was fair for us young people to do the singing
and the senior citizens(my aunts and uncles) just watches
i mean they are getting older and soon they may not even be able to sing anymore
so we didint want to be selfish so senior citizen had to take part in the singing
we the young ones were given the honour of selecting the winner among all the senior citizen that participated
just to add a spoiler we decided to choose the lousiest and most awfull sounding pair as winners
hahaha
anyway after that we playe TABOO(where u guess what the word ur teammate is describing)
it was the battle between the male and the female
i dont really know who won
but anyway that is how this year xmas ended
i wonder how new year will be.........
well i just have to wait and se.............

Sunday 14 October 2007

is old gold?

smile was bright
just the right reaction
you were waiting
not for many
atleast just one to come and see you

as days go by ask myself
what do you look forward to the most
your children,grandchildren or great grandchildrenor
even maybe death

is death really something you really look forward to?
isnt 'old gold'?
is it that lonely now?
do you really feel dying is a wise action?
do you think all will be ok if you are gone?

i detest the way you trated my mum
i detest the way your children treated my mum
i detest the way us when we were young
i detest that you are happy to see me only now

i have many reasons to detest you
and i think of what might happen if you leave
the pillar of this family leaves too
the reason to be together leaves
and so does our family bond
so what is left is justa memory of once
there was a pillar and how things happened then

Old may be Gold
maybe not for you
but the people around you
the OLD is a GOLD pillar
that everyone must tressure
it may take time
for everyone to realise
the pillar is GOLD
but when they do
i am afraid it might be to late

Saturday 6 October 2007

what the.........

is it jealousy
maybe not............
how can i be jealous of them
they cant hurt me.....i think
maybe i am just sad it ended up this way

life is really unpredictable
one day they are normal
another day u hear something shocking about them
one minute they seem alright
but if you see them everyday for more than three hours
you will finally see their true colours
SELFISH ,SELF-CENTERED,RUDE,and
ALWAYS THINK ABOUT YOURSELF
pain in the ass person

do not ask me who i am refering to
i will only tell you if i am totally drunk
or wasted.....
so how to deal with the people changing around you?
A: just remain true to yourself and let them realise that they have change for the worse
AMEN.



(a little joke i made after seeing a book title in popular)
P.S:Q: who rape the lock
A:a key

get the joke........yes.........no.........never mind lah..........

Wednesday 26 September 2007

my family........

Family ties is very important………that is what my family always says. When I mention family I am also referring to my aunts uncles cousins nephew and nieces. I come from a very big family and also a very close knit family. What I mean by close knit family is that we always celebrate xmas ,easter and so on together. When I was a kid I was oblivious to my surroundings. during xmas I will get excited to receive presents and also have a lot of fun with my cousins but as years went by and I entered my teenage phase I started to be observant and also cautious .i realize I couldn’t be my true self in front of my huge family but when I am with my mum and brothers its totally different because they know the real me and I am not afraid to show my true colours when I am around them but when I am around my huge family I cant be myself instead I am not really myself when I am around them. Its really hard to say when I started to think this way or why I am thinking this way but I cant help myself.
I always told myself that I would never change my trueself (always thinking I am right, voicing my displeasure when I am not happy with something and saying whatever I want when I want to) but here I am being a totally different person when I am around my huge family .I guess when I started to observe I realize that things are not really that simple around my family. there are times when I feel that my ‘huge family ’is being unreasonable and as young member In my family I cant really voice out my displeasure .There are times when I feel my huge family treats me unfairly but I cant say anything because if I do they will just call me an ill mannered girl and blame my mother for not teaching me properly. I have heard countless gossips about me and even felt that some of my family are embaressed with me by the way they acted(it was very obvious). I am not saying that my family hates me or treats me badly because they don’t and they do not only gossip about me alone almost everyone has been gossiped about. Another thing about my family that never gets me excited for the holidays is the competition in the family.i am often said to be to fat and need to lose weight .me and my brothers are not really clever so we always just manage to pass our examination and we are always looked down because our cousins will always do outstandingly in their exams.
My family is like the reality game survivor. The players have no choice but to live together because they are one tribe and some try their best to adjust themselves to get along with everyone but some just cant and that is when the other tribe mates starts gossiping and back stabbing and voting off one another but when it comes to family you just cant vote off somebody just because they have treated you badly
Even if I was given the chance to vote off someone from my family right now I don’t think I can
Because I believe god knew just what he was doing when he put me in this family and when I am around them I am able to know what kind of people exist in this world because when I was young I thought that this world only consist of people like my mother ,father and brothers .I also think that it is this family of mine that makes me feel that I am not alone .You see if I were to go to church on xmas eve and sing joyful xmas songs and then go home with my mum and brothers and just go to bed after that then I am not different from the people who live in homes. I realize that whatever unhappy things I went through or might go through with my family I also have many happy moments when I am with them and I know I will experience even more happiness when I am with them so why did I start this page with bad memories of my huge family ? because its only when you listed out all the bad things will you know that the good things are even more. My family is huge and each of my family members are not alike so it might be hard to try to please everyone but knowing that we are family , it doesn’t really matter if we hate each others guts or are embarresed about each other because we all know that at the end of the day that this family cant be happy if one of us is not around because god made us all out to be a family and without one of us this family can never be complete.