i am in this road
i made the choice and i am sticking with it till the end
i am going to be the best
an excellent one
yet this road is really a difficult one
which one isnt right?
i chose this road alone
no one influenced me
just me
so right now it feels like i am walking alone
dont be mistaken, i am not complaining
its just walking alone its starting to weigh up..
i dont know how to explain nor do i know how to tell someone about it..
i dont think its meant to be told...its meant for me to deal with it alone..
PART 2
alone
this word its really a part of my life
i like being alone
that is when i shut the entire world out and the only ones left is me, myself and i
it gives me chance to comfort myself
there are certain things that i cant say out
i dont wish to say out
so the only way for me get through it its just by comforting myself( it works though)
but sometimes
it gets really difficult to deal somethings alone
i cant complain
because complaining means i cant do it
i cant cry because i dont want and will not look weak
i know its stupid to feel this way
i wouldnt want my friends to be thinking this way
but if you know me then you should know my own advice doesnt work for me
i know i can do this
i can get through this
i know i can
i have to
but sometimes my own weakness gets the best of me
and everything falls back to square one
and i have to start all over
but i wont complain because if its something i have to do to be the best i will do it
PART 3
i am pushing myself to be the best
i dont want other people to force me to be the best
i want to be the one forcing myself
so if i make a mistake
i can blame myself
if insecurity comes in i have to blame myself
if others can do it well and i cant i have to blame myself
i am my own judge
PART4
i beg myself to be the best
PART 5
i cant cry so i smile
PART6
i will get through this. i know i will.. and as for my friends dont worry...my life is worth too much for me to be sad and depressed =))
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