Sunday 18 July 2010

i am 21 now..

i remember stuff that has happened in my life but

what exactly i want to remember the most?????


lets see..

i will just sart from my earliest memory

my insecurities whenever my mum is not around..

i will cry whenever i dont see her

it annoyed everyone around me

they gave me the nickname 'crybaby' which till this day they refuse to let it go.=.=

my childhood

i enjoyed my time with my cousins.

although they are mean

'boys will always be boys'

that is how i comforted myself whenever they bully me

but the fun times was the most memorable

Primary school was a nightmare!

i hated it there

i was never happy there

i never fitted in no matter how hard i try

i was always alone there

never found a friend i could trust or even share a joke with

Then there was cathecism classes

i hated it

i was always alone there to

Thank God for Cindy

she was the only friend i had there

we were together till we finished the cathecism classes

for about 12 years

i wonder how she is now?

we lost contact when cathecism classes ended

maybe one day i will meet her in church again

then we can catch up


Secondary school was my favourite time of my life

i did struggle with a different kind of insecurity

but that was always left behind me

i meet great friends there

Mei Yee was the first person who started me on my journey to learning mandarin

then Xue Ying came to help..the rest is just came in place..

Wei Ling was the first person i had a conversation with in that school

Adeline was the first person who spoke to me

Mei Xin was the first person i didnt like even before speaking to her.. but in the 5 years of secondary school she was my best friend

Xue Ying was always there

in the first few years i always thought of her as a good friend only but when i reached form 5 that was when i knew and felt she was my best friend for life

Xue Ying, if you are reading this..i am sorry i took so long to see what a true friend you were

Then there was Wei Ling and Vanessa

my godness they always made me laugh especially Vanessa and when Wei Ling is there it was always fun

Thank you guys for always making me laugh and smile

i still remember your jokes and stories especially Vanessa's

Mei Xin, she was there for me and never abandoned me she was a good friend

but the both of us made the biggest mistake anyone could ever make in a friendship and that is why we will never be what we used to be

but we did share a beautifull friendship and because of this friendship i made even more best friends

Then i went to NS relunctantly...

i was scared but even there i meet good friends

Xue Fen,Bibi, and also Chan Lee and not forgetting Suat Peng

they were my real friends there

Chan Lee and Xue Fen was always staring at my teeth

Hope they are fine and doing well


Then i went to college

it was not the right decision but it was my decision

i wasnt ready to make a big decision like this

and i did it the wrong way

but in this college i met great friends again

Diana, Wen Nee, Ikhwan, Sez Wei..and others

and also not forgetting someone important,,Xue Ying

yes we went to the same college

we said we would go to the same college together when we were in secondary school and we did it.=)

City Square was our hangout

we always go there and chat, window shop but never to study=)))))))

Ikhwan Tharwan...one of my weirdest best friends

when i meet him he was lost

totally lost but refuse to admit it

one of my true friends who is there when i need him and also doesnt hold back his thoughts about anything from me to my friends, strangers his grandmothers maid and also has the tendency to speak like a ...well i am not sure what to call this kind of speaking...it involves sex.=.='

annoyed me in the beggining but now i am used to it

we never lost contact even until now=)

i didnt do well in this college

so i took the road that i was always running away from

Its amazing how i reached this road

i never thought this was my destiny

no..wait... i never wanted this road to be my destiny

but it is now...

by each decision i made in my life so far i reached this road...

come to think of it, i chose this road by myself with every decision i made in my life so far...

Life is really unpredictable even more unpredictable is the human itself...^^


I am now in a different college now

starting from the bottom and working my way up..slowly but steadily

The road i chose is Nursing

its a challenging road with a lot of burden to be selfless and noble

i am not going to be selfless or even noble just because this road reguires me to

if i ever become that it will be because i want to and it comes from the bottom of my heart

I can be a great nurse but i want to be a great nurse who is still Daphne Fernandez=)


Did i mention Ikhwan is in this college too

Yup..........i was so damm happy when i heard he was going to study here

we meet up sometimes and Ikhwan is still Ikhwan with a bit more happiness in him

I meet a few good friends here...we are the loudest when we are together no matter where we go..

we help each other and we strive together to reach our goals

I am not going to mention them here

i am going to save this for another post

because i still have a lomg way to go before i make the next decision which road to go


To myself, thank for all the decisions you made whether good or bad

i met great people some still in my life some jare the happiest memory i ever had

whatever it is, i met them i felf their love and support and most imporantly i shared great friendship with them..so to myself thank you=))))))))