i am 21 now..
i remember stuff that has happened in my life but
what exactly i want to remember the most?????
lets see..
i will just sart from my earliest memory
my insecurities whenever my mum is not around..
i will cry whenever i dont see her
it annoyed everyone around me
they gave me the nickname 'crybaby' which till this day they refuse to let it go.=.=
my childhood
i enjoyed my time with my cousins.
although they are mean
'boys will always be boys'
that is how i comforted myself whenever they bully me
but the fun times was the most memorable
Primary school was a nightmare!
i hated it there
i was never happy there
i never fitted in no matter how hard i try
i was always alone there
never found a friend i could trust or even share a joke with
Then there was cathecism classes
i hated it
i was always alone there to
Thank God for Cindy
she was the only friend i had there
we were together till we finished the cathecism classes
for about 12 years
i wonder how she is now?
we lost contact when cathecism classes ended
maybe one day i will meet her in church again
then we can catch up
Secondary school was my favourite time of my life
i did struggle with a different kind of insecurity
but that was always left behind me
i meet great friends there
Mei Yee was the first person who started me on my journey to learning mandarin
then Xue Ying came to help..the rest is just came in place..
Wei Ling was the first person i had a conversation with in that school
Adeline was the first person who spoke to me
Mei Xin was the first person i didnt like even before speaking to her.. but in the 5 years of secondary school she was my best friend
Xue Ying was always there
in the first few years i always thought of her as a good friend only but when i reached form 5 that was when i knew and felt she was my best friend for life
Xue Ying, if you are reading this..i am sorry i took so long to see what a true friend you were
Then there was Wei Ling and Vanessa
my godness they always made me laugh especially Vanessa and when Wei Ling is there it was always fun
Thank you guys for always making me laugh and smile
i still remember your jokes and stories especially Vanessa's
Mei Xin, she was there for me and never abandoned me she was a good friend
but the both of us made the biggest mistake anyone could ever make in a friendship and that is why we will never be what we used to be
but we did share a beautifull friendship and because of this friendship i made even more best friends
Then i went to NS relunctantly...
i was scared but even there i meet good friends
Xue Fen,Bibi, and also Chan Lee and not forgetting Suat Peng
they were my real friends there
Chan Lee and Xue Fen was always staring at my teeth
Hope they are fine and doing well
Then i went to college
it was not the right decision but it was my decision
i wasnt ready to make a big decision like this
and i did it the wrong way
but in this college i met great friends again
Diana, Wen Nee, Ikhwan, Sez Wei..and others
and also not forgetting someone important,,Xue Ying
yes we went to the same college
we said we would go to the same college together when we were in secondary school and we did it.=)
City Square was our hangout
we always go there and chat, window shop but never to study=)))))))
Ikhwan Tharwan...one of my weirdest best friends
when i meet him he was lost
totally lost but refuse to admit it
one of my true friends who is there when i need him and also doesnt hold back his thoughts about anything from me to my friends, strangers his grandmothers maid and also has the tendency to speak like a ...well i am not sure what to call this kind of speaking...it involves sex.=.='
annoyed me in the beggining but now i am used to it
we never lost contact even until now=)
i didnt do well in this college
so i took the road that i was always running away from
Its amazing how i reached this road
i never thought this was my destiny
no..wait... i never wanted this road to be my destiny
but it is now...
by each decision i made in my life so far i reached this road...
come to think of it, i chose this road by myself with every decision i made in my life so far...
Life is really unpredictable even more unpredictable is the human itself...^^
I am now in a different college now
starting from the bottom and working my way up..slowly but steadily
The road i chose is Nursing
its a challenging road with a lot of burden to be selfless and noble
i am not going to be selfless or even noble just because this road reguires me to
if i ever become that it will be because i want to and it comes from the bottom of my heart
I can be a great nurse but i want to be a great nurse who is still Daphne Fernandez=)
Did i mention Ikhwan is in this college too
Yup..........i was so damm happy when i heard he was going to study here
we meet up sometimes and Ikhwan is still Ikhwan with a bit more happiness in him
I meet a few good friends here...we are the loudest when we are together no matter where we go..
we help each other and we strive together to reach our goals
I am not going to mention them here
i am going to save this for another post
because i still have a lomg way to go before i make the next decision which road to go
To myself, thank for all the decisions you made whether good or bad
i met great people some still in my life some jare the happiest memory i ever had
whatever it is, i met them i felf their love and support and most imporantly i shared great friendship with them..so to myself thank you=))))))))
