what does it feels like to be locked outside your own house

it feels like.....

when you lose your wallet which is full of water

+

when you start running around the world only to find out in the end the world have run out of water

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not being able to say anything suddenly because out of no where you lost your voice

yup.. as you have already guessed i was locked out of my house

i forgot to bring my house key when i left

but i thought it didnt matter since my brother was at home

after waitinng so long for a bus and i was so happy to be finally home

i rang the doorbell with the hope that my wonderfull brother will open the door for me...

i rang the doorbell for atleast 5 minutes

the only doors that opened was my neighbours... even they could hear my doorbelll but only my wonderfull brother couldnt

i called his stupid handphone 20 times the only voice i heard was

"the person you dialled is currently unavailable..plese try again later"

yes.. after 20 calls i have made a conclusion that her mother only taught her to say that line...

poor thing

so i continued to knock and ring the doorbell

the whole block heard it except for my darling brother

so at this point my mind was not at a normal level

so i did something that i would not have done if my mind was at a normal level

i went down to the ground floor....

i went towards where my brothers window was located....(that was what i thought)

and i screamed on top of my voice calling my brothers name and also some very not pleasent words...(keep in mind my mind was not at a normal level)

so basically i screamed until i ran out of breath

eveyone was looking of of their window

except for my brother

then

i realise

my brothers

window was

not located at where i thought it was

it was at the opposite side

yes

i totally felt that i lost my mind at that time

so i went to the opposite side

and screamed for my brother

and out of no where i heard

"WHAT"

from my brothers window

i still had some energy to screamed from the ground floor and scold him

i had every right to scold him

only thing i should have done it when i was in my house... my bad

after that i was never seen a a polite young lady anymore in my neighbours eyes

when i went up to my house my neighbours were laughing and the only thing i could have said was

desperate times calls for desperate measures.

MY SPECIAL DAY

My special day….

8 june 2008…
i met xue ying at city square at 12.00 pm
she wanted to treat me lunch
so we went to VIVO
from the time I met her at mc donalds till we were at VIVO she kept saying she was disappointed with Wen Nee for not being able to celebrate my birthday with me
Knowing Xue Ying for many years already I knew she was up to something..
Because she will never be angry with someone she is close with her unless that someone makes her feel like a fool.
So I knew she would never be angry with Wen Nee
So to not make her feel that I knew what was going on
I went along with her story…
Then after a while at VIVO..
Wen Nee popped out…
I knew they were going to surprise me but I didn’t expect to get a shock out of it…
I was shaking after that
So my dear Xue Ying I was not surprised I was shocked..
Then after lunch my dear friend Ikhwan brought out the Caramel Pudding he made …
At that moment I was so touched….
The pudding was very delicious…
I feel bad I coulnt finish it
Because it was really a large portion
But I loved it
My dear friend Ikhwan was also the first person to wish me
So I would like to take this opportunity to thank him
For everything…
Then there is my new ‘lover’ Wen Nee..
I thank you so much for tha hand-made Birthday Card
I really love it
I would tressure the card you Made for me for the rest of my life
Then there was also Sez Hui
She is really afraid of pudding
So I guess it was really a torture for her to see a large pudding
So I would like to thank her for being there and not complaining even after seeing a large pudding

Then there was the very cute Joanne
She is really very cute
Even though we got to know each other only for a short while
She never made me feel that way
She made me feel like I have known her for ages
She will always laugh for no special reason
Thank you so much for celebrating my birthday with me
Thank you for making a long journey from Kulai to spend my birthday with me
Then there was also Koo…
We used to call him anti- social
Because he never liked going out
But he changed a lot..
Thank you so much for making it that day
I wont forget our deal.
Then there is my dearest best friend Ng Xue Ying a.k.a orangeyou made my day a special day
She called me while she was watching movie in the cinema with
Lydia, Pinky and Pui Yee
Lydia sang a portion of the birthday song for me and the rest of them wished me.. Thanks so much
After today I can make a conclusion orange is not very good at lying
Thank you so much for the surprise and the shock
I really appreciate it
Orange was also the last person to wish me happy birthday and also the first to wish me happy belated birthday
Wen Nee, Sez Hui, Joanne, Ikhwan, Koo, and also my dearest Xue Ying
Thank you so much for a wonderfull day
I really appreciate it
To those who remembered my birthday

Thank you so much…
I really appreciate it.

wont be updating my blog for a while.maybe after my exam.......really sorry about it.......

i have been feeling really lousy these few days........and worst of all i really dont know why........

weird right.........

anyway nothing much is going on in my life these days

just the daily routine of attending class doing homework..........

i really want to be rebellious and do stuff that i normally wont dare to do.........

i want to scold all sorts of bad words and throw insults at people who make me feel lousy

i want to go out late night and get drunk without having to consider about my mum

i want to yell at my family for chosing money over family

i want to travel around the world without any

worries............

what i am asking and wishing for right now seems really impossible but i still have this tiny little ray of hope maybe it will happe.........

test. test. test.tutorials and all those stuff that can make you do well in your exam is really driving me crazy............
i guess i havent really been working hard these days
its a new year.2008
no new year resolution
just need to tahan for 4 months
then later can enjoy
i think........

XMAS 2007

so xmas just passed
it wasnt really up to last year standard
but it was not that bad
last year xmas was really eventfull......
as usual we went to church
then we all gathered at my grandma's house
we had a toast....wished everyone merry xmas
then it was present time........(this is the main point of xmas and also what keeps xmas really fun)
so as all of us got our presents.....
then after that
my aunts organised a karaoke competition
apparently i am a relly lousy singer
of i know that
but the prize is cash
so i was willing to emberass myself
but in the end i didint win anything
then we started partying........
so all this happen last year

this year
everyone just concentrated on making money the most easiest way there is
poker
i didnt earn much
but i think i lost a lot
anyway on 25th night my aunts once again made us sing
but we the young ones didint think it was fair for us young people to do the singing
and the senior citizens(my aunts and uncles) just watches
i mean they are getting older and soon they may not even be able to sing anymore
so we didint want to be selfish so senior citizen had to take part in the singing
we the young ones were given the honour of selecting the winner among all the senior citizen that participated
just to add a spoiler we decided to choose the lousiest and most awfull sounding pair as winners
hahaha
anyway after that we playe TABOO(where u guess what the word ur teammate is describing)
it was the battle between the male and the female
i dont really know who won
but anyway that is how this year xmas ended
i wonder how new year will be.........
well i just have to wait and se.............

is old gold?

smile was bright
just the right reaction
you were waiting
not for many
atleast just one to come and see you

as days go by ask myself
what do you look forward to the most
your children,grandchildren or great grandchildrenor
even maybe death

is death really something you really look forward to?
isnt 'old gold'?
is it that lonely now?
do you really feel dying is a wise action?
do you think all will be ok if you are gone?

i detest the way you trated my mum
i detest the way your children treated my mum
i detest the way us when we were young
i detest that you are happy to see me only now

i have many reasons to detest you
and i think of what might happen if you leave
the pillar of this family leaves too
the reason to be together leaves
and so does our family bond
so what is left is justa memory of once
there was a pillar and how things happened then

Old may be Gold
maybe not for you
but the people around you
the OLD is a GOLD pillar
that everyone must tressure
it may take time
for everyone to realise
the pillar is GOLD
but when they do
i am afraid it might be to late